broken hearted fool

a fool for falling in.
a fool for digging deep.
a fool for wanting more.

a fool for trying.
a fool for telling.
a fool for opening up.

a fool that is what i am.
understanding but not really capturing the meaning of it all.
and so i am a broken hearted fool.

for those who are in love

1) Never try to change your loved one to suit your own taste. It defeats the purpose of falling in love with who s/he really is.

2) After being with each other for so long, never forget the little things that made you fall in love with him/her.

3) Too much jealousy can kill but a little of it is healthy. Besides, its nice to know that your loved one fears of losing you.

4) Small random acts of sweetness have guaranteed tremendous effects.

5) Say I love you because you mean it and not because you have to.

a romantic's ideals

i want to be someone's last call of the night and his first thought in the morning.
i want those 5-hour conversations that end in: no, you hang up first.
i want the heart-racing, palm-sweating, what's-gonna-happen-next? moments.
i want the hugs that he never wants to let go of and the stolen kisses that are always the sweetest.
but most importantly, i want someone i can think of as mine and mine alone.

change of body clock

i think my body clock is changing. lately, i've been waking up early and can't go back to sleep. so i get so sleepy during the night. *sigh* i'll have to find a way to go back to my usual sleeping hours.

if only people at home could shut their mouth and realize that someone is sleeping in the other room. if only no one will disturb me during slumber, then i wouldn't be like this. i hate being like this because i get so moody. it's not a good thing for me.

anyway, gotta go back to work now..

how happy are you?

You Are 76% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

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how vain are you?

You Are 45% Vain

You're a little vain, but more than anything you have a healthy amount of confidence. Thinking the world of yourself is great. Just don't think less of those who aren't as pretty as you!

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personality profile

Your Personality Profile

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky. Like mother nature, you want to help everyone. You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive. A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker. You are good natured and people enjoy your company. You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.

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guilt

i'm supposed to be asleep at this time. but then i couldn't sleep. something is bothering me. deep down inside, i feel so guilty. i am guilty for not taking care of something. i have been irresponsible. i feel so irresponsible. so guilty am i of losing something that i borrowed. i am feeling so so guilty.

i'm so sorry dad..

determination

i am now determined to do something i was hesitant to do before. yesterday, i was hesitant. i was not ready. but today, i have prepared myself and i am now determined to do what i have to do. i will not say what i plan to do and i will not give any hints to it. i think the time has come to do such a thing. i am being provoked and i am rising to the bait. i will rise and i will win this.

a little something for your highness:

if being "plastic" is what you want, then that's what you'll get. i won't give anything more than that. i am waging a silent war against you. you'll never know what's coming next. i will get back at you someday.

would you agree?

my cousin sent me a text message today. tell me what you think...

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for a long time now, i've been asking myself, where does love go after someone breaks up with you? why is it that suddenly we feel tired of loving that person? why can't we offer even friendship? and i found the answer. many may think i'm stupid not to know but the answer is simple. it's because one expects something in return when they give love away and when we don't get what we expect, we feel tired or even give up. many have said that love is not selfish but really, it is. it always has been and it'll always be.
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agree or disagree?

i can say that love is selfish but not entirely. there will always come a time when one will become selfish but most of the time love is selfless (did i use the right word?). most of the time you only think of what you can do for the person that you love..what you can do to make him/her happy. one always thinks of how his/her loved one will feel before doing anything else.

10 facts of about LOVE

1) Love does not hurt. Physical and/or emotional abuse are not a part of love.

2) Love is not manipulative, it should not be used to get others to do what you want. You should never give in to demands based on the, "You would do it if you loved me!" tactic.

3) Love is an intense feeling of caring for another person. It can take many different forms (romantic, friendly, familial) but it is always about caring.

4) Although it is true that a big part of love is putting another person's happiness ahead of your own this never includes compromising your values or being untrue to yourself.

5) If somebody asks you to do something that you don't want to do in order to "prove" your love they do not love you the way you might think they do. When you love another person you don't ask them to sacrifice a part of themselves in the name of that love.

6) It is very easy to confuse lust for love. The true measure of romantic love is commitment and trust not physical attraction.

7) It is possible to feel romantic love for more than one person at a given time. Just think, if it is possible for you to love both of your parents at the same time why would it be impossible to feel romantic love for two people at once? Don't beat yourself up emotionally if you find yourself in this unhappy situation. But be sure to remain single and be open and honest with all parties about your feelings and confusion.

8) Sex is NOT love. Love is NOT sex. Sex can be a part of romantic love but it is never mandatory.

9) Romantic love can (and often does) fade. When it goes there is not always a reason. When somebody falls out of love with you it does not reflect upon your value as a person or your desirability.

10) Love should make you feel happy, secure and appreciated.

too many walls by cathy dennis

Wish on a rainbow is all I can do
Dream of the good times that we never knew
No late nights alone in your arms
I'll dream on
Living in wonder, thinking of you
Still looking for ways to uncover the truth
You're so young is all they can say
They don't know
If I could change the way of the world
I'd be your girl

Too many walls have been built in between us
Too many dreams have been shattered around us
If I seem to give up they'll still never win
Deep in my heart the strength is within

Watching the others chances drift by
They'll never discover these feelings I hide
Deep inside I'm falling apart
All alone with a broken heart
Thinking in silence is all they allow
These words still unspoken may never be found
All these dreams one day will be mine
They cross my mind
My time has yet to come
Until then

Too many walls have been built in between us
Too many dreams have been shatered around us
If I seem to give up
They'll still never win
Deep in my heart I know the strength is within

Repeat to fade...

girls

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine", after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so wonderful.

When a girl lays on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday,
she is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says, "Ill love you forever,"
she means it.

When a girl says that she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that.

bad news

the day started out right. i decided to buy my computer. i already gave the go signal. i'll just be waiting for it to be delivered next week. then i came to the office and it felt like a bomb was dropped in front of me. i didn't have the power to change things. i didn't have any control over what would happen next. so i just said that it was ok. it's ok because i can't do anything else. i'm not mad at anyone. it's just that i feel that it's so unfair but i can also understand their reasons. i don't know. i'm feeling so down. i don't know what to do. i don't want to work today. i'd like to go out and have some fun. i'm not in the mood for work.

in a rage

tell me, why did you just do what you did? i really didn't like it. i was ashamed of what you just did. i can't believe you just did such a thing. i never expected that you'd do that. how can you go so low? i didn't really think you were capable of going so low. it's so pathetic. i pity you for i now know how weak you are. i thought you were stronger. i thought you were going to let me be happy. i guess you're too greedy. you don't want me to be happy. didn't you notice before? i wasn't happy being with you anymore. that's why i left. can't you just let me be happy? let me live my life the way i want to live. i beg of you. stop whatever it is that you're planning to do. i really can't believe you. i never thought of you that way. i wanted to have good memories of you. i didn't want to have bitter memories from you. well, congratulations! you just managed to give me a very BAD memory of you. i told you before, don't make me hate you. you couldn't just stop yourself?! well, now i HATE you! i REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE you!!! don't expect that we'd ever be friends again. don't expect me to want to talk to you. don't expect me to want to see you again.

pieces

something is about to shatter yet no one can hear. no one can see. no one can catch it before it shatters. no one will ever see. everything will be hidden.

something's amiss

something's amiss. i can't pinpoint what it is. but i feel like a piece of me is missing.