the right thing

i did it. i finally did it.

after months of thinking, i finally did it. i did the right thing this time. i let go. it hurts but it's the right thing. i won't be messing up his life any more. he'll be free of me. he can go about his life not feeling guilty about having me in his life.

why does the right thing hurt? *sigh* i had to do it.

it hurts to know that he hates me now. but i don't know of any other way to have done it. i would have wanted us to be friends. but you can't have everything, right?

to you, you know who you are:
i'm sorry for everything. i hope in time you'll forgive me. i'm letting go not because of what we had fought about. i'm letting go because it's the right thing. i know, i know. you'll say why i didn't agree with you the last time. i am selfish. i know that. i really am sorry it had to end this way. you hating me was never on my mind. me hurting you was never intended. yes, i had to do what i had to do. you know how i talked to you about moving out right? i want you to start a new life. i hope that in that new life, you'd be happy. and i do love you. more than you think.