i hate IE

arrrgh! i hate you!

my head is aching trying to solve this problem. the design is ok on firefox and other browsers. why oh why can't it be ok in IE?

this gap..this stupid gap..it appears and disappears as i scroll up and down while viewing the page. why does this happen? arrgh! and only in IE!!! =(

bad mood so early in the morning

it's still very early in the morning and i'm really not in a good mood. i hate the fact that she ruined my day. why can't she just allow me to do the things i wanna do? why?

i hate being in that house. i don't know what to do. i want to move out but i don't have enough money to live on my own. not yet anyway.

i'd like to be free. free from them. free from all of their nagging.

help me. free me.

up and down the rollercoaster

most of the time i feel happy. happy because he makes me happy. happy because i'm spending my time with him. but then again, there really are times when i feel so down. and i cry because of him. not that it's his fault. i cry because i can't be with him. i cry because i'm frustrated that i can't be with him. i knew from the start that we'd be far apart but still i continued this relationship for the simple fact that i love him. but this long distance thing is really hard. it's pulling me down. making me sad. i can't be totally happy because i can't be with him. so no matter how much we love each other, we always end up fighting. not his fault, mine.

yeah yeah yeah..i know i keep complaining..maybe i just don't know how to handle such a relationship. maybe it's the fact that i can't accept that we can't be together. maybe it's because i expect too much and so i get disappointed a lot. and maybe..it's because i am so idealistic..because as my friends would say, i am a perfectionist(?). am i? could these things be the reason behind all these arguments? maybe they are. i really don't know. enlighten me.