dying inside

everytime i think about us i cry.
everyday..every single day, i remember your mail. it makes me cry.
there is nothing i can do to stop myself. i cry because it hurts.
it hurts to know that there's nothing else i can do to make everything ok.
much as i want to make things better. fix things. i know you don't want to. not anymore.
you've given up on us. and there's nothing more i can do about it.
i love you more than anybody else i've ever loved.
i guess this is how it is. how it'll be from now on.
i'll have to satisfy myself knowing you are there to talk to me..to listen to me.
thank you. even though we just play at times and not talk.
thank you for making your presence felt.
i don't want you to think that this is just a girl thing.
no. this isn't just a girl thing.
this is the first time i've ever felt this way.
i've never felt so hurt before.
i'm dying. dying inside. it's killing me. this pain is killing me.

goodbye to my love

i am really miserable. nothing can lift me out of this. only you my dear can make me feel better. funny how you are the cause and the only cure to my pain. i cannot imagine life without you. i cannot...

how will i ever face my tomorrows? what will happen to all my dreams? what is happiness without you?

you wish for me to be happy. but how? how do i do that? how i can i be happy?

i lost you again.. =(

and this time, we can never be together again. =(

why is it so hard for me? you seem to be taking it easy. how do you do that? how can i not do the same thing? why is it not easy for me? why?

i guess this is goodbye. goodbye to you my love. i will never forget you. i will never forget the love we shared. but then there's no other way to do it. we have to say goodbye.

one last time let me just say it.... i love you my silly bear

bye love