me in my everyday world

my thoughts on just about anything in this world i'm living in. the life i live which no one could know about unless i tell them about it.

Friday, March 31, 2006

what i miss

I miss...

the days when we used to just hang out without a care in the world.
the times we shared just talking.
the times when you could walk by my side.
the moments we've had just being happy.
your loving and caring way of joking around.
the way you seemed to need me to cheer you up.
the times when you visit us.
the times when i visit you.

but mostly i miss the you i've come to know.

:( i will miss you for all the love that you've shown me and for all the moments that we shared. and I LOVE YOU!

out of this world

these last few months, i've had an aunt and uncle struggling to fight cancer and my grandmother also had a stroke..what luck huh?! well, what i knew was that they're still trying to fight. guess what now? i guess i wasn't really well informed about the family events or something. my aunt died. my uncle is on life support. but my grandmother is still doing ok.

now, when did this all happen? i can't answer such a question. not because i don't want to answer that. but because i honestly DO NOT KNOW!! so how did i know the updates on their lives? just because i happened to wake up early and caught my sister in the room. she knew about these things. i didn't.

i feel so bad for not knowing such things. i mean, i should've known and i should've comforted my other relatives who are with them day and night. but i couldn't comfort them because i didn't know. i never knew such things already happened.

i'm feeling so bad right now. i've been so caught up in my own world that i never even bothered to ask them how they were doing. how bad can i be? i never realized that i was being so selfish...so uncaring.

huhuhuhu..i want to cry..i'm so sad.

TO MY FAMILY:
i'm sorry. i'm sorry for being so selfish. i'm sorry for not knowing that you needed me to comfort you. i'm sorry for not asking how you were or taking the time to say hello. i know i've been caught up in my own world for so long. i've been out of touch. i'm sorry. i know my sorry won't help you in any way. but still i want to say it. i need for you to know that i really am sorry. i'm sorry that you're suffering now. i'm sorry that i cannot help you. because no matter how sorry i am, i know you'll still feel the pain. but still . . . . . I TRULY AM SORRY.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

makes sense to me

got this email from somebody.. the person makes sense to me..


Subject: Open Letter to Our Leaders: Why We Are Not Out In The Streets

Dear Tita Cory, Senators, Congressmen, Businessmen, Media people, Leftists, and all Bleeding Hearts Out There:

I am angry. And I know that there are many out there who are angrier thanI am for the same reason. And that reason is simple. I am sick and tiredof all you guys claiming to speak for me and many Filipinos. I feel like screaming every time you mouth words about fighting for my freedom and my rights, when you obviously are just thinking about yours. You tell me that the essence of democracy is providing every citizen the right to speak his or her mind and make his or her own informed judgments, but you yourselves do not respect my silence and the choices I and many others have made. In other words, your concept of democracy is limited to having your rights and your freedoms respected, at the expense of ours.

I am utterly flabbergasted that you still do not get it: we already responded to your calls, and our response has been very clear - we chose not to heed your calls to go to EDSA or to Fort Bonifacio not because we do not love our country or our freedom or our rights, but preciselybecause we love our country even more. Because quite frankly, we are prepared to lose our freedom and our rights just to move this
country forward. You may counter with your ideological propaganda and give me
all the dire warnings about the evils of Martial Law, authoritarian rule, suppression of freedom, etc., but quite frankly all we see is your pathetic efforts to defend your right to continue fulminating, filibustering, and sabotaging this country until you wrestle power for yourselves. You tell me that you are simply protecting my freedoms and my rights, but who told you to do that? I assure you that when I feel that my rights and my freedoms are at a peril, I will stand up and fight for them myself. I have done that in the past, and I will do it again when I SEE THE NEED FOR IT, not when you tell me to do it.

You tell us that GMA is not the right person to lead this country because she has done immoral acts. As someone who sees immorality being committed wantonly in many ways every day and by everyone (yes, including the onesyou do), I may have
become jaded. I may have lowered my standards about what a leader should be.
Guess what, Tita Cory, you lowered it yourself. When I accepted your incompetence
and fought for you during the many attempts against your government, I already
lowered the standards to ridiculous levels. Guess what, Senators and Congressmen,
you lowered it yourselves when you ran for office and won and now make fools of
yourselves in the august halls of congress.

But the simple truth that you try to obfuscate is this: you have not been able to offer me any viable alternative! On the other hand, GMA has bent over backwards many times to accommodate you while continuing to work hard despite all the obstacles and the brickbats you have thrown her way. From where I sit, she is the one who has been working really hard to move this country forward while all of you have been so busy with one and only one thing: to make sure she does not succeed. So forgive me if I do not want to join you in your moral pissing contest. Forgive me if I have chosen to see things from another perspective. You say she is the problem. I say, we are - all of us is the problem; more to the point, I think you are a bigger problem than she is. Taking her out may solve part of the problem, but that leaves us with a bigger problem: you. That is right, YOU!

While I felt outraged that she called a Comelec official during the elections and that she may have rigged the elections, I have since then taken the higher moral ground and forgiven her. Yes my dear bishops, I have done what you have told me to do since I was a child, which you say is the Christian and moral thing to do: forgive. Especially since she has asked for forgiveness and has tried to make amends for it. Erap certainly has not apologized and continues to be defiant, continuing to insult us everyday with his protestations - and he is part of your cause now! Cory has not apologized for her incompetence but we have forgiven her just the same because like GMA, she has worked hard after all.

I know you do not think that GMA's apology was not enough, or that she was insincere, or that that apology should not be the end of it, but please spare me the hypocrisy of telling me that you do so for the sake of protecting the moral fibre of society. The real reason is because you smell blood and wants to go for the kill.Well, I have news for you. I do not like her too. I did not even vote for her. I voted for Raul Roco. But as much as I do not like her, I do not like you even more. I may not trust her, but you know what, I do not trust you even more. You know why I do not trust you? Because all you do is whine and sabotage this country. You belittle every little progress we make, conveniently forgetting that it is not just GMA who has been working so hard to achieve them. Every single day, we keep the faith burning in our hearts that this country will finally pull itself out of the mess and we work so hard to
do that. Every little progress is the result of ourcollective effort, we who toil hard everyday in our jobs. Yet, you persist in one and only thing: making GMA look bad in the eyes of the world and making sure that this country continues to suffer to prove your sorry point. In the process, you continue to destroy what we painstakingly try to build. So please do not be surprised that I do not share your cause. Do not be surprised that we have become contemptuous of your antics. You have moved heaven and earth to destroy her credibility, you have convened all kinds of fora and hearings and all you have done is test our patience to the core. For all your efforts, you have only succeeded in dragging us further down. I say enough.

Don't get me wrong. I am not asking that we take immorality lying down, or that we let the President get away with anything illegal. But you have tried to prove your accusations all these time and you have not succeeded, so it is time to let things be. Besides, you are doing something immoral as well if not utterly unforgivable. The Magdalo soldiers are consortingwith the communists - the same people who have been trying to kill democracy for years. Cory has been consorting with Erap and the Marcoses. So please wake up and take a reality check. In the absence of true
and genuine moral leadership, many of us have decided to cast our lot with the President, even if we do not like her. A flawed leader is better than scheming power hungry fools who can not even stand up for their convictions in the face of an impending arrest. Your coup attempts and the denials that you have consequently made only underscore what we think is true: you are spineless and unreliable people who only want power but not the consequences and the sacrifices that go with the
quest. Your one and only defense is to cry suppression when your ruse does not
work. You are nothing but BULLIES who taunt and provoke, but cry oppression when taken to task for your cruelty. You call for the rule of law and respect for
authority, but so brazenly display your defiance and disrespect for the same
things you claim to be fighting for. I would have respected you if you took the
consequences of your actions like real heroes: calmly and responsibly instead
of kicking and screaming and making all kinds of lame excuses. You say you are
willing to die for us, that you do all these things for the country and the Filipino, but you are not even willing to go to jail for us. Come on, you really think we believe that you did not want to bring down the government when THAT IS THE ONE AND ONLY ONE THING THAT YOU HAVE BEEN DESPERATELY TRYING TO DO in the last many months?

We love this country and we want peace and progress. Many among us do not give a f*&k who sits at Malacanang because we will work hard and do our share to make things work. We the people will and can make it work, if only you get out of the way and let us do it. If you only do your jobs, the ones you are supposed to be doing, things would be a lot simpler and easier for all of us.

The events during the weekend only proved one thing. You are more dangerous
and a serious threat to this country than GMA is. We have seen what you are
capable of doing - you are ready to burn this country and reduce everything to
ashes just to prove your point. If there is something that we need protection
from, IT IS PROTECTION FROM YOU.

S. C. Austero

Saturday, March 04, 2006

pics part 6 on the way home

pictures inside the airplane. just proves that we don't have anything to do while we're on the plane.

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me

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kuya, ate reanne, and me

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kuya, copying the girl on the other side of the plane.

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at last we arrived

pics part 5 enchanted kingdom

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outside enchanted kingdom during the afternoon.

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ate rhea and ate reanne buying the tickets

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me and kuya waiting while ate was buying the tickets.

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deciding which ride to take first.

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ate rhea, anela and tito g on the ferris wheel.

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kuya, ate reanne, and me on the ferris wheel.

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you can see the roller coaster with two loops. we wanted to ride that but there were a lot of people in line. and besides, tito g didn't want to ride that. hehe!

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the view we had while we were riding the ferris wheel.


THE FERRIS WHEEL

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yummy! lots of candies for the big kids. hehe!

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what's the name of this ride? hehe! don't really know. but it was fun.

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eating dinner and trying to decide which ride to take next.

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yucks! kuya doing something weird..

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tito g and anela.

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on the way to ride log jam!

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after riding log jam! it was so scary and we were so wet.

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while waiting for someone buying some souvenir.

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kuya, inside the rialto theatre.

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tita lydz waiting for us. we were inside the rialto theatre.

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me, my siblings and our little cousin, anela w/ the carousel in the background.

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ate reanne, me, kuya, tito g and anela w/ the carousel in the background.

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the carousel.

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ate rhea, me, ate reanne, and tito g waiting for tita lydz and anela.

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ate reanne and tita lydz taking a picture before we go home.

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outside enchanted kingdom during the night.

pics part 4 home away from home

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our home away from home.
it's a good place to relax and spend time with family. i've got a lot of memories in this house. :p

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ate reanne and me taking our pictures while we wait for lola to wake up.

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kuya holding lola's hand. half the time we couldn't understand what she was saying.

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kuya standing outside our home in tarlac.


INSIDE THE HOUSE

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hahahah! i saw my picture beside the ancient sewing machine.

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this is where i usually hang out. i just watch tv most of the time.

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it's the bedroom. of course, this is where we sleep. :p


OUTSIDE THE HOUSE

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beneath the santol tree. this is where we used to play and ride the swing made out of an old tire and some rope.

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another fruit tree though i just don't know the name of this tree.

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just the driveway. :p

so bad..

waaaaaaaaaa! this is so bad! i can't upload pictures anymore!!!

anyway, since i can't upload it here, i'll just upload it somewhere else. i'll just give you links so that you can view the pics..there's still a lot more pics from my vacation..hehe!

pics part 3 garden in tarlac
















the pond looks so amazing. it's teeming with life.


THE FLOWERS

there are a lot of plants in the garden. different kinds of flowers are blooming. the flowers look so nice. of course, it only happened to be that way because of lolo's love and care for them.





Wednesday, March 01, 2006

pics part 2 in the mactan airport

Nothing to do but wait for the time to board the plane. *sigh* so we proceeded to do what we normally do while waiting. take pictures!

(though it's kinda weird coz they're pictures of our reflections on the glass. hehe!)