shattered

new year. new beginning.

that's how it's supposed to be, right? not for me. i don't have the urge to live the life i want to live. there's something that i really really want. i'd give everything to have that something. but it just isn't supposed to be mine. i'm slowly losing my will to continue living my life the way i want it to be. my dreams of that something have shattered. i don't know if i'll be able to dream new dreams as wonderful as those i've lost.