special request

i didn't know and it wouldn't have mattered had i known before. she asked that i go there. it wouldn't really have mattered whether she asked or not. i would have gone there anyway. what did matter to me was the fact that she asked for me and not someone else. i could not and still can't fathom why of all people she asked for me. i've never been the best granddaughter she could ever have had. i was always trying to rebel..to get out of the responsibility of having to take care of her. i have been trying to escape my responsibilities as her granddaughter and yet, there it was.

despite all the bad things i've done or how badly i acted in front of her, she was looking..asking for me.