can't figure it out

i can't seem to figure it out.

sometimes it seems as if he wants me to be there always. sometimes it seems as if i am nothing. so what is it really? i don't know how it's supposed to be. i guess everything that's happening between us is confusing me. you confuse me. i confuse myself. everything is a jumble of words and emotions. i'm not so sure what you want. i know i want you by my side. what about you? what do you really want? tell me. don't leave me hanging like this. don't just come and go as you please.