out loud

have you ever regretted something? there were times in my life where i didn't think about the future. i didn't think or care about anything at all. i always looked at the person as either someone who's nice to me, someone who annoys me, or that someone is my enemy. i've classified the people around me as these types of persons.

there's this one person i always classified as someone who annoys me even though what that person did was just loving me and caring for me. i used to argue alot with that certain person. i didn't like it when that person hugged me and kissed me. it made me feel uncomfortable. that person was so proud of me and yet i felt embarrassed when that person presented me to people i don't really know.

now, i regret what i've done. i regret ever feeling that way. it sounds cliché but . . . now that i feel that i'm going to lose that person soon, i realized just how much i loved that person. i realized how much that person means to me and how that person just kept on loving me inspite of the way i treated that person. inspite of all the things i've done, that person will always be caring for me and loving me.

so now i've decided that even if i'd feel really annoyed in the way that that person treats me, i wouldn't let it affect me because it's the least that i can do. i'll try to take good care of that person. it's the only way that i can thank that person for all the love and care.

i've grown. i've learned. and this is what i need to do.